"My forgiveness is no good to you, nor yours to me; whether you forgive me or not, you will always be a sore place in my heart, and I in yours--so it must be."

cease and desist

i don't know what version of myself to be anymore, which one of them is real? 

i keep trying on different personalities, hoping one feels right again,

which one of them will give me peace of mind?

my therapist keeps telling me that I deserve good things, but i'm not so sure. 

i lean towards thinking i'm evil, 

something within me must be unbearably wrong

because i can't wrap my mind around believing i'm a good person.

i don't know how to be anymore