breakupersary

3 years.

When will it hurt less?

I keep a list of things i'd like to tell you,

I lived well.

This painful coming of at 29.

(It'll forever be an open wound).

waterproof

I can't see the love I've received 

it might be because i'm not to be able to accept it

The thing i desire the most

It escapes me.

BHOM

I started wearing that necklace again.. the one that had the little harlequin on it. 
I told you i liked it because i loved to make people laugh., 
somehow it broke and i never got around to fixing it, 
somewhow i broke and never got around to make people around me happy again. 

my spark dimmed, was it you? 
it made you uncomfortable, my light. 
it was so luring. you, black hole of a man. 

my love is a burden to the people around me

they do not wish to receive the love i crave to give