i forgive you

was i selfish
or a coward?
i can't decide.

running for cover
whilst uncovering you
was my best
and worst
decision.

coming undone was your ritual,
you've learn all the good ways to destroy yourself
and were taking me along for the ride.
a hostage.

was i selfish for flying the scene?
was i saving myself?
or was i just a little boy,
running scared,
with my tail between my legs?

i can't decide

the trip i couldn't escape,
this road paved with guilt
still haunts me at night.

i wish i could've loved you better
         i wish you could love yourself better