never less than the right amount of rightfulness

is it okay to say,
you weren't enough for me?
am i allowed to feel that?

i loved you,
yet
you weren't enough
for me

i'm sorry
i doubt this changes
anything
but it's also okay

maybe i needed less
of this and that
and more
of this and that

it just never seemed
to be
the right amount
of this and that

and it's okay
(we'll keep searching)

please don't leave without me (all alone)

i pled for your sentences to be reduced,
prayed to every god within you,
until one heard me,
i had never tasted such sour joy

you ripped out the chains,
walked a stright line,
spat on the face of the devil
and lived to tell the tale

but i forgot no one fights for anyone else
like i fight for everybody else,
but me

and  again
i'm stuck,
blind for love
but not (love) for myself