now, you mean nothing

we suddenly crossed paths the other day 

and i just felt nostalgic
for all the things we lived, 
the good moments we spent together. 

i wanted to be angry, pissed, dismissive
my immediate reaction was warmer than (i think we both) expected.
i wanted to hold onto my immature impulses, my hurt feelings,
but that was the only thing left from us, 

nothingness.